Tamak Haloba

Saya seorang yang tamak haloba...

semua benda saya nak buat dalam waktu yang singkat..

kenapa? saya risau faktor umur saya makin meningkat..

saya risau  kalo saya xjumpa jalan masa depan..

saya xsuka buat benda yang sama sepanjang tahun.

oh itu bukan diri saya...

apa lagi yg perlu saya buat utk meningkatkan produktiviti poket saya?

fenin fenin fenin. 

@.@~   +__+"

oh my heart oh my soul~

2 am..aku still xbole tido...kepala aku ligat memikir dua benda yang aku kena berkorban sikit...
emm sikit kew? banyak la jugak rase nyer..masa depan aku. haihh.

kan best kalo ke zon sekolah...pagi bgun awal then g sekolah. ptg balik tido..sabtu ahad cuti..
dan begitulah kisah seharian walaupun kadang-kadang aku rase membosankan dan membuatkan aku
curi-curi merayau...hehe

tapi sekarang aku dah habis sekolah, every single step aku kena fikir sejauh mungkin.
sekali aku salah aku da xboleh patah balik..bagi org yg pandai dan otak geliga mungkin dorg just
further study n continue sampai beruban..tp aku ni jenis otak tepu...masuk unisel separuh jalan
last2 menanggung hutang...

bila dah keja dapat gaji..separuh dari gaji aku terpaksa bayar balik loan study xhabis..
memang terbaik,,,letih...rasa nak meraung kuat2! huuwaaarghh!! tu la nama nya melintas xtengok kiri kanan.
bila dah accident br nak menyesal..kau careless intan...


tapi even aku xpandai dari segi akademik..aku beralih ke arah kemahiran..minat aku mendalam...sebab aku memang
suka tengok orang cantik and berstyle..eventhough org ramai nmpk pakai baju mcm org rabun warna tapi bagi aku tu style seseorang..
sebab aku pon suka funkey,rock and kandang2 xsemenggah langsung style orang..HAHA
bukan la yg seksi meksi jew xsemenggah maksud aku..alaa mcm chinese style..kan pelik2 cara dorang pakai..
bukan jugak aku nak membanggakan bangsa dorang tapi kitakan 1 malaysia... :p terpulang pada individu la kan..huhu

ok berbalik pada topik masa depan..sesapa yang kenal aku memang dorg dah taw apa yg aku suka..contohnya...
aku memang addicted dengan colour biru n colourful,aku xbole makan pedas,aku gila dengan mini cooper s, and aku
adalah salah seorang dari club kipas salena gomez..WAHAHAHAHa!


tersebutlah kisah seorang perempuan memang berniat nak beli mini cooper s dengan hasil titik peluh nyer...mampu kew?
aku pasti aku boleh asalkan aku berusaha...betol x? that why aku xsuka semakkan kepala aku dgn masalah remeh tempe..
selagi impian aku xtercapai dek akalmu bak kata elyana jgn harap aku nak kusutkan kepala..hehe
intan seorg yg ego kn?HAHA so what? :p

tapi sekarang kepala aku tgh bercelaru...tetiba aku terniat something yg terluah dari akal yg gedik..
aku nak sambung study lagi...maklum la..dlu blaja giat mara jew...tapi yang nie memang course yang aku memang suka and keja nie la
yg bagi aku duit tiap2 bulan sekarang..aku just nak improve kepala otak aku dengan ilmu yg fulltank je..
hishhhh tapi bapak mahal dow...mana ntah aku nak cekau duit..loan lagi??!!!
memang la ada tempat yang murah sikit dari tmpt yg aku nak apply tu..tapi aku takut dah habis nnti
aku xnmpk jalan aku nak bayar balik loan la sengal...even tempat tu mahal sikit tapi berbaloi kot sijil dia nnti...
gaji xcalang rase nyer...zzzZZZZ mata ku dah scroll alot of money.. $__$ HAHAHA
ntah2 kalo ada rezeki dapat jugak aku sambung study lagi sampai oversea..
amboii over lah kau intan....tapi siapa yang tahu kn? takdir Allah SWT yang tentukan.kita cuma perlu berusaha aite? insyaAllah.. :)


tapi nanti kalo dah tersangkut hutang lagi kat ampaian aku... keturunan keberapa pulak aku bole dapat mini cooper s huh?
berjanggut la aku dok sebut nama kereta tu kn...kempuanan hasrat hati mak nokk....ntah2 mase tu mini cooper rakyat jelata pandang mcm kereta kancil jew..
lagi la aku rase nak cepuk diri sendiri...ishhhh..apa aku nak buat??  2 2 nie impian aku..hukhukhuk *___*"
(di kesempatan ini saya xberniat nak kutuk kereta kancil..)
HAHA :p

bukan senang nak senang,
hidup xselalu indah,
langit xselalu cerah kn....

oh abah... i misshhh u, i lebiu...do come to my soul and mark your warning in my mind...lets think about it together..lets bring me to the bright future..
tell me what should i do.. i'll follow...

goodnite. tido bermimipikan mini cooper s and konvo pegang sijil Level 3 Professional Diploma in Hair Design..
(pengunguman: dalam bidang kemahiran diploma hair design umpama anda memiliki master art and design) HAHA

Intan Zulfika. :)

Totaly blind

I see you all the time
Never see you smile
I try to picture what's going on in your mind
He leaves you every night by yourself
He took your love and put it on the shelf
He doesn't really care... how you feel...
You should be moving on girl what's the deal?
I wanna see you out that door... cause girl you know you're worth much more
So baby tell me why you stick around
Always lonely and you only wear a frown
He don't treat you good and you know
The only thing left is for you to go
You shouldn't live a lie with someone
When deep inside you know he ain't the one
I don't know what to say no more
I wanna see you out that door
Yah azizi (yo precious) is mahini (listen to me)
I really don't wanna see u cry
Mujko samjho dil peh mat lo (understand me don't take it to heart)
Don't wanna see another tear in your eye
Baby break away
Let him go
I don't know he's done to you
But I know that it's time to move on
Girl your love is blind
Girl I understand
That you're scared
And you feel that you might never love again
But baby that ain't true
No no no
I know that there some there for you
Someone that will see
That you are worth
An undiscovered treasure on this earth
Girl you know you're worth so much more
I wanna see you out that door
Yah azizi (yo precious) is mahini (listen to me)
I really don't wanna see u cry
Mujko samjho dil peh mat lo (understand me don't take it to heart)
Don't wanna see another tear in your eye
Baby break away
Let him go
I don't know he's done to you
But I know it's time to move on
Girl your love is blind
Yah azizi (yo precious) is mahini (listen to me)
I really don't wanna see u cry
Mujko samjho dil peh mat lo (understand me don't take it to heart)
Don't wanna see another tear in your eye
Baby break away
Let him go
I don't know he's done to you
But I know it's time to move on

BOY MY LOVE IS BLIND.. :'(

WE ARE NOTHING

<3 We have been silent for 6 years today. seriously NOTHING. keep on playing around then terkantoi lagi...kantoi lagi..dan kantoi lagi...Apa nak jadi?? Apa pon xbole.. haihhh.. 

<3 Biarkan masa yang tentuan apa kesudahan.

<3 I adore u as a liar.

 

<3 Kita ada jalan masing-masing.

<3 I'm waiting for somebody new. ;-P

<3 Saya setia selagi saya boleh setia.

<3 <3 <3 six love for six years <3 <3 <3

nah amik key chain nih. :p

SILENT +____+

"SILENT IS KILLER" AHAHA
yg tu peribahasa utk org kentut xde bunyi tapiiiii bau nyerrrr peerghhhh tongsampah pon xbusuk mcm tu...HAHA lagi2 kalo baru lepas makan tolo..HAHHA harum semerbak baiiiii~

ok aku bukan nak ckp pasal silent tu..
entri nie aku nak ckp pasal diam xbermakna salah.
ok betul..kadang2 bila kita tgok balikkn..diam tu just nak selamatkan keadaan.
umur semakin meningkatkan..dah bole fikir dengan rasionalkn....
xkan nak buat perangai mase tadika dulu.."gadoh sebab kebas pensil member sambil jelir2 lidah kan..." :p
ok skarang dah maju..even nak marah pon..time tu je..cehh cakap pandai..(time tu pon makan mase dlm 3 hari plus2 jgk..) biasa la..aku pon manusia..ade sifat marah bak kata BOXERKEDUT.BLOGSPOT.COM
"WE'VE BORN WITH IT,WE'RE LIVE WITH IT.

ok aku nie jenis marah sekejap jew..sebab aku akan buat spekulasi balik..untuk apa aku semakkan kepala aku..andai kata semak itu akan membina sebuah mini cooper s..yeabbaaa yebbbaaa! hari2 aku nak semak..
HAHAHA

tapi.sebagai manusia biasa marah itu selalu je ada..memang xbole lari pon..manusia kan xpernah berpuas hati
dengan sesuatu benda.. anda kena terima yang tu. sometime bila kita marah akan ada hikmah disebalik tu.
contoh nyer.kalo kita marah orang dengki dgan kita.hikmah nya kita taw perangai sebenar-benarnya orang tu macam mana..
eh! yeker? HAHA tibai je lah..suke hati aku la..ini belog aku~ :p

bila marah biarkan sekejap sampai cool. then dah! enough!.u must keep yourself into silent mode.
lagi banyak anda bercakap lagi banyak dosa yang anda akan tabur.
contohnya suara dan lidah bersatu mengeluarkan kata2 kesat. atau bahasa pasar nyer mencarut.

tapi ingat! aku diam xbermakna aku lupa.aku diam xbermakna aku takut.aku diam xbermakna aku lurus walaupun aku memang cepat blur.
aku diam just untuk mencantikkan keadaan. so jangan digali lagi diam aku. senyap and do what you want to do.

do you remember poem "the road not taken by robert frost" ?


Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim
Because it was grassy and wanted wear,
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I marked the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I,
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

aku dah pilih jalan aku sendiri. salah atau betul biarlah aku yang tanggung.
atlis aku tidak and tak nak menyusahkan sesiapa.
ok dah chow.

cite pasal diam kan..aku teringat 2 orang sepupu aku..
mase dorang tadika kn..dorang kene salotep mulut dengan cekgu tadika sebab mulut dorang xreti DIAMM!
hahahahahahahaahahahaha :))

When u walk pass me, its like u never even knew who i was…

Do you remember when we were best friends?When we'd share our every thought?Every smile?And every laugh?Oh, and did you remember when you broke my heart?Because I seem to remember that more than anything.I trusted you, I trusted you to take care of my heart.I trusted you not to take it and stomp on it.
The day you betrayed my trust was the day that I lost all my trust for you.I believed that you would take care of my heart and that's why I left it with you.Well, I am taking it back because at this very moment I can't trust you with my heart.In fear that you will hurt me once more.
Look at me through my eyes and feel the pain I hide inside.
It breaks my heart.. it makes me sad to think of all the times we had.You made me laugh. And all that I can do is sigh,and wonder why.
I wish I could walk away and forget what we have,but I can't,because I know you won't come after me,and I guess that's what hurts the most.
It's really amazing when two strangers become the best of friends,but it's really sad when the best of friends become two strangers.
trust can take years to build,but only a second to break.
If you ever have to question a friendship,then can it really be called "BFF?"

How can it be that two of the greatest friends in the world can go from being each other's everything to absolutely nothing?

I want to be able to look at you and not be hurt by you.

Do you know what its like to reach for the phone, and then have to pull your hand back because you remember you're not supposed to call anymore? You sit back with tears building up in your eyes because you know its not the last time you'll miss the conversations you shared.
To lose a friend has to be the greatest pain you will ever feel. Every time I look at you, I remember that pain.
The light that fueled our fire then has burned a hole between us so
We cannot see to reach an end
Just, not enough.
I need more.
Nothing seems to satisfy. crippling our communication.
Have you ever been low? Have you ever had a friend that let you down so?When the truth came out...Were you the last to know? (Kelly Clarkson)
Through the years I cried my tears,
Without your help I've faced fears.
And it's plain through tears I cry, That's its time to say goodbye.

eyes water HAHA

ANDA FAHAM APA ITU EYES WATER?? atau dalam bahasa melayu nya....AIR MATA..

ok yg sebetulnya bahasa omputeh yg cikgu aku ajar dolu "tears" betulkn??

haaa dah bpe tahun tinggal kn skola..otak aku pon dah lembab nak scan macam macam..

lately asik dok scan duit kat dpn cashier jew...mmg la nk scan benda lain dah tak lut...

taw dak lut tu apa? haha p tanya org Kedah Darul Aman..HAHA

ok fine.sebenarnyer entri tentang aku jew...i dont know kenapa dengan aku...payah bebeno nak sensitip..tipu la aku xpernah menangis, tp memang payah...last aku menangis mase kene ceramah kaw2 ngan boss..HEHE kenapa??cer cita?? RAHSIA!! xbole cite.malu.... ngee B-)

hmm nak kata aku nie keras hati batu xde perasaan....weyh agak2 la..aku pon manusia beb! tapi tu la hakikat..

ok mase zaman aku gedik2 dulu pon aku pernah SEKALI je mata aku bocor. tu pon sebab dah tak tahan tahap dewa dah... sampai satu tahap dia buat wa sentappp...perghhhh memang tersentapp mak nok! kalo stakat lu jln pegang pegang wa tadahal la..wa pandang sebelah mata je beb.tapi lu main kasar .depan-depan kot lu bikin projek kos rendah..haihh memang lu saket jiwa maw pujuk wa kan? sampai wa demam lu ckp wa mcm kena rasuk...haaa amik ko. ko xpernah tgok air mata aku kn? sekali je aku rakamkn depan mata ko.lepas tu harap maaf tiada siaran ulangan. Siaran ulangan akan ada kalo suami saye buat hal jew..bukan stakat demam..padam terus rasa nya...HAHA

ok then aku CUMA sensitip ngan family, wa cukup touching kalo abg2 or mak or seangkatan yg bernama keluarga wa menyakitkan hati. wa xmarah balik..tapi wa diam2 tenyeh mata guna tangan wa..ok dah! jgn cite lebih2..malu..ngee :) dalam hati wa tetap ade taman rama-rama kn. HAHA

ok ini serius punyer, air mata perempuan saya betul betul mengalir dari hati yg halus saat saya melihat tubuh ayah saya dikafan kan. terbayang mcm mana dia akan tempuh dunia baru dia seorang diri? bolehkah dia? sedangkan masa dia kena kerja di hari raya pon dia menangis, tapi itu qada' dan qadar.saya dengar talkin "mati itu benar" saya terima dengan kata yang positive. saya rasa dia bahagia disana selagi kami disini sentiasa mendoakan dia dan kami tahu sebaik mana dia sebagai mana baik nya dia sebagai seorang ayah mendidik kami menjadi seorang yang berperikemanusiaan.

kami dibesarkan dengan sifat yg sederhana atas bantuan isteri tercinta ayah saya dan cintanya dibawa sehingga ke hujung nyawa.cinta nya yang membawa ke syurga.cinta yg abadi.cintailah ibubapa anda :)

yang selebih nyer aku nanges kalo aku saket tahap cipan, ciapn pon tak guling2 mcm aku.

tapi korang jgn keliru antara sebak dengan air mata,

bagi aku kn..bagi aku laaaaa sebak tu bila ada something dlm hati yg tidak terluah.sakit yg simpan didalam pendam perasaan org ckp.aku pernah rasa sebak tu mcm mana. rase mcm xbole nak bernafas. nak ckp xbole..nak nangis pon rase nyer xde eyes water pon. ntah la..org yg mengalami nyer jer yg faham sebak tu ape..korang nak taw lebih lanjut sebak tu hape....korang google la sendiri sebab aku malas...
aku ckp pkai apa yg terlintas je..HAHA eyh suke hati la...bluwekk :-p

huuuwaaaAAAA sob sob sob!

*yg penting air mata aku mahal sebab aku diamond* HAHA poyo xnak kalah... :-p