Selamat Hari Lahir En.Zubir 💚💚💚

Selamat hari lahir abah... u re 55 if u still around me...and it has been 11 years u leave me... and i still miss u. I still love u..

Abah... i rindu u... i donno what to do When im give up. When i cry. When i sick. When i blur.

I thanks Allah to give me rezeki yg xpernah putus. I Thanks Allah to give me so much ujian. I thanks Allah cuz He give me a good friends around when i need their shoulder to cry on...I Thanks Allah to give me a strength without u..  I thanks Allah to keep u for me. And I believe He always protected me wherever i am without u... and I thanks Allah kerana Dia campak rasa kasih sayang dr org sekeliling untuk saya walau tak setanding dengan kasih sayang seorg abah kandung.

Abah...intan hidup bukan nk mengejar kemewahan semata-mata seperti yg org lain nampak dr luaran intan.. tak pernah pun mintak belikan barang branded dr sesiapa. Intan cuma hidup apa yg ada didepan mata... apa yg Allah bagi tu dah lebih dr cukup. Tak pernah pun ckp kat org betapa susah nya hidup harian intan. Tak perlu pun intan nk tunjuk apa yg intan bagi. Semua tu rahsia hidup intan. cuz I will let Allah judge me. Cuz i know semasa hidup abah tak pernah pun minta balasan atas setiap pertolongan. Tak pernah pun tunjuk dekat org atas setiap pertolongan... but i know u and Here I follow u.. walaupun dah 11 tahun abah dah tak berkhidmat sbg polis. Here I still let them know that my late abah is a police man. Cuz im so proud of u.

Abah... Im Sorry for my sin. Im sorry for my past.. I know i hurt u..i knew I hurt them but its really hit me. I cry when I think of it. If today is my last day. The first thing i wanna meet is U... cuz im tired to let them judge my mistake. I know syurga is not deserve for me yet but I hope He will never leave me alone. whatever i do . I do it for Him n for u abah...

Your kenangan is always in my mind. The best ever kenangan yg org lain xde tp intan ade.. Intan balik tadika naik moto polis. Panjat kat tong tangki minyak depan.. haaa korang hado??  Hahahaha dulu masa sekolah u bought me basikal but they dont. Now i derserve it abah...I have nothing... I redha.. huhu


Sometime I dont believe that I bring along your name Everywhere and I wrote at any form.. the fact is there is no jasad yg tinggal hanya nama di batu nisan. And I know bila tiba masa nama saya juga akan tertera di batu nisan sebagai tanda kenangan.

I love u abah. Your only daughter love u so much. Selamat hari lahir... selalu org baca doa selamat untuk hari lahir. Tapi saya baca Alfatihah untuk hari lahir abah yg ke 55. 56 57 and forever.

I WONT GIVE UP

when u look into the mirror and see NO CHANGE, and still keep faith, knowing in time u will get there if u stay focused and on track, That's the different between those who succeed and those who fail.

Life is a journey to find yourelf

I got this title from 1 of  my friends. I pinjam ayat u Mr.Nasri. hihi coz I'm so touch with this statement.

Yup life is a journey to find myself. aku memang tengah emo gile sekarang nih.. kenape??

hmm tak rase nak share dgn sesape pun lagi.. kalo aku nak share nnti pndi2 la aku cari ayat..

yg penting aku muak dgn org yg dok berdoa dekat fesbuk. lepaskan tempias marah kat fesbuk. nak emo kat fesbuk. Emo kat blog xpe.. HAHAHA ape beza die? ade beza die yg org lain xnampak...

senang cite aku dah deactive semua akaun aku... padan muka. padan muka aku jugak stop sosial network. Im so tired. 

yg penting aku rindu abah 2.0.

ni lah kesan bila dr kecik terlalu dimanja kan.. bila hilang terkapai2. lost habis. sadis.

tgok la ptg nih kalo aku rajin nk menaip.. kalo tak rajin mmg xde update pape la..

WHY OH WHY~

talk less.

Im bored. yes infrequently like this.

Im a happy go lucky person. Laugh out loud. Cheers people around. Make a fool joke to myself and others but lately i can't feel it. different.

such a ridiculous. that not me. sometime i wanna cry for something i don't know. 

sometime i get mad for a very simple thing.

wehh am I getting CRAZYYY???

ohhmaiiiii.... no no no. 

or im getting OLD???

oh NOOO! 

im tired. but i'm getting thinner. HAHAHA

That why I love myself. huahuahuahua

Yawn.

A Mature relationship

For me, for a being a good relationship with your partner is understanding. confidence and trust to each other.

Tolerance with your partner is not good enough. for your diversity in your relationship to become a true love. we must embrace it. we must understand it. That means understanding each other better.That means knowing more about each other's feeling better. 

It means putting yourself in other person's shoes before you say something. this is not about sympathy . About being able to fight for your right. About to pretend your own decision. 

what is love? 

love.. for me love is "sayang". "Sayang" doesnt mean that u are saying "cinta" to your partner. it may become love as a friend. put your hand to your heart. Ask yourself did u love your boyfriend/girlfriend before being a husband/ wife. Did u feel the butterfly in your stomach?. 

Without "cinta" its hard for you to understand and feel each other. 

and I will tell you sayang. my future husband. This word I havent says to my past. This feeling I havent give to someoone else. Neither. I'll keep for u when u are ready to "akad" my name. I will give to u with full of my heart. Coz when Allah SWT says that u are my mate, I'm very sure that He will give us the right ways to jannah. Amin.

p/s : macam cekodok muka lelaki bila merajuk..   huuuuu =.=' 

YAWN

BANYAK KERJAAAAA!!!!

• TAPI MALAS NAK BUAT
• TAPI MENGANTUK
• TAPI LEMAU
• TAPI 
• TAPI
• TAPI
• TAPI....

ZZZZZ

Punching Bag kesayangan beta.

my nephew 

my love

my son

Zayan Ammar Rahman 

Sleepppppyy!

im sleepy. yawn yawn yawn!

smlm balik dr gym terus amik baju keja g tido umah mira kt setia alam. Mandi2 dah nak dekat pkol 1 pagi..die bole ajak layan cite pengantin malam pulak.. haaa memang tak tido la cite die..sampai 2.30 pagi pastu sambung borak pulak.. kat kg aku ade mcm ni kat kg aku ade mcm tu...sampai kesudah tak tido.. xsedar lagi diri tu dah ada komitment.

sampai ofis memang nak kena letak batang mancis kat kelopak mata la..aku turun beli air fresh orange..masam2 pun xjalan.. sbb perut aku xbole amik caffeine kalo tak dah lama settle masalah.. perut reject shop... biase la.. jom cite pasal caffiene!

okeh. aku mmg dr kecik tak bole minum jenis nescafe2 dan seangkatan dgn nya. even sarapan pagi arwah abah. minum petang arwah abah, sahur pagi2 pun mak aku suka bancuh nescafe nescafe nescafe! dah memang tu la feveret adik bradik n arwah abah aku. tapi aku xbole.. tapi kadang2 tu degil gak bau aroma die perghhh! aku sedut jugak.. HAHA lepas tu bg aku masa setengah jam jee...tunggu aku guling buat latihan tekan tubi. HAHAHA gelakkkk.. suke kan... sakit tanggung sendiri...

tapi pernah sekali tu aku buat degil.. aku minum minum minum minum. lantak lah kau perut.... tambah plak skrg mcm2 perisa... oldtown white coffee with hazel nut lah...original lah... latte la... macam2.. plastik tu pun dok tarik aku suruh koyak die. haaaa aku pun hari2 koyak.. hari2 la jugak dok tekan tubi..sampai 1 tahap aku xbole tido terlentang..MENUNGGING AHH sampai terlena. org kata mcm sakit sengugut.  padahal aku alah caffiene. HAHAHAHA suke ko kan...sakit sdri tanggung. padan muka.

oh to be honest! aku xde sengugut yg teruk.. pernah sekaliiii je. tu pun masa sekolah. sakit giler rupa nyer sengugut tu...cuma aku cepat lenguh pinggang kalau badan aku kurang air bila bendera jepun naik.


 back to cite caffeine. sebenar nyer ade baik ade buruk nyer kesan dari caffeine nih.. ye la.. tang baik aku nampak untuk diri aku bila minum nescafe hilang mengantok..tak lemau.. tapi dr segi dalaman memang negative health effect laaa... aku sakit perut. berangin satu badan. and the most important is aku tak suka part nak buang air.... eeeee! sakit hati. aku xsuka bau dia weyhhh termasuk la dtg dr badan aku sdri... iiissssshhhhh! memang aku tuang pencuci Daia bau apple sebotol la dlm toilet bowl. aku bukan la hygiene sangat.. biasa2 je... tp sape yg suka tgok benda kotorkn..

okeh!! malas dah nak bebel... maju lah suka untuk negara...! HAHAHAHA

CHOW CINCAU

WOHOOOOO!! 2015!!

HALLOO org kampung!! apa cerrr?? setahun sekali weyh update blog nih.. ampun kan aku. aku lupa password! puas aku godek2 tekan tu tekAn nih haaaa baru dapat bukak balik.. HAHAHAHA lagipun ceq ada blog hat lain.. tu yg malas nk bukak yg nih...

bukan nak jadi kacang lupakan kulit.. bila baca balik post2 lama. nak tergelak pun ada... hegeh nak mAmpoih...player gak aku nih... tp bila org tanya ada bf ka tak. seriusly aku tak pernah ckp aku ada bf sammmmmpai LAST 2014.... HAHAHAHAHA :))

InsyaAllah- 2015 aku fikir nak naik 1 step lagi eh... hujung bulan 1 nih ade kursus kahwin... semoga semua nya berjalan lancar... haaaa aku dah banyak berubah... antaranya

berat aku 60kg! (=.=')

daymmmm. so 2015!! aku nak make sure berat aku 49KG! kalo tidakkk woii runtuh pelamin aku weh. kalau boleh laaaaa.. aku cuba yg terbaik... aku naik pelamin dgn siapaaa??? insya Allah nnti aku war2kan berserta kan kad yer... org nyer biasa2 je. humble. tak bnyk ckp. tp kiteorg ade 1 hobi yg kiteorg kongsi. best best best. 

banyak jugak keje nak langkah alam baru nih rupe rupenye. hmmm..

SO! 

update pasal aku. 

aku bukak homespa kt s.alam...nak dekat setahun dah... aku share ngan kawan aku buat homespa! Alhamdulillah.. pahit manis mcm aku rase...

kawan2 stalker2 sudi2 la dtg ke salon aku kat s.alam.. nk dtg email aku dlu... intan_zulfika89@yahoo.com. nanti aku cepat2 reply okeh! nnti aku bg tau location.

ok babe! aku rase nk chow dah.. byyyeeeee!