When u walk pass me, its like u never even knew who i was…

Do you remember when we were best friends?When we'd share our every thought?Every smile?And every laugh?Oh, and did you remember when you broke my heart?Because I seem to remember that more than anything.I trusted you, I trusted you to take care of my heart.I trusted you not to take it and stomp on it.
The day you betrayed my trust was the day that I lost all my trust for you.I believed that you would take care of my heart and that's why I left it with you.Well, I am taking it back because at this very moment I can't trust you with my heart.In fear that you will hurt me once more.
Look at me through my eyes and feel the pain I hide inside.
It breaks my heart.. it makes me sad to think of all the times we had.You made me laugh. And all that I can do is sigh,and wonder why.
I wish I could walk away and forget what we have,but I can't,because I know you won't come after me,and I guess that's what hurts the most.
It's really amazing when two strangers become the best of friends,but it's really sad when the best of friends become two strangers.
trust can take years to build,but only a second to break.
If you ever have to question a friendship,then can it really be called "BFF?"

How can it be that two of the greatest friends in the world can go from being each other's everything to absolutely nothing?

I want to be able to look at you and not be hurt by you.

Do you know what its like to reach for the phone, and then have to pull your hand back because you remember you're not supposed to call anymore? You sit back with tears building up in your eyes because you know its not the last time you'll miss the conversations you shared.
To lose a friend has to be the greatest pain you will ever feel. Every time I look at you, I remember that pain.
The light that fueled our fire then has burned a hole between us so
We cannot see to reach an end
Just, not enough.
I need more.
Nothing seems to satisfy. crippling our communication.
Have you ever been low? Have you ever had a friend that let you down so?When the truth came out...Were you the last to know? (Kelly Clarkson)
Through the years I cried my tears,
Without your help I've faced fears.
And it's plain through tears I cry, That's its time to say goodbye.

eyes water HAHA

ANDA FAHAM APA ITU EYES WATER?? atau dalam bahasa melayu nya....AIR MATA..

ok yg sebetulnya bahasa omputeh yg cikgu aku ajar dolu "tears" betulkn??

haaa dah bpe tahun tinggal kn skola..otak aku pon dah lembab nak scan macam macam..

lately asik dok scan duit kat dpn cashier jew...mmg la nk scan benda lain dah tak lut...

taw dak lut tu apa? haha p tanya org Kedah Darul Aman..HAHA

ok fine.sebenarnyer entri tentang aku jew...i dont know kenapa dengan aku...payah bebeno nak sensitip..tipu la aku xpernah menangis, tp memang payah...last aku menangis mase kene ceramah kaw2 ngan boss..HEHE kenapa??cer cita?? RAHSIA!! xbole cite.malu.... ngee B-)

hmm nak kata aku nie keras hati batu xde perasaan....weyh agak2 la..aku pon manusia beb! tapi tu la hakikat..

ok mase zaman aku gedik2 dulu pon aku pernah SEKALI je mata aku bocor. tu pon sebab dah tak tahan tahap dewa dah... sampai satu tahap dia buat wa sentappp...perghhhh memang tersentapp mak nok! kalo stakat lu jln pegang pegang wa tadahal la..wa pandang sebelah mata je beb.tapi lu main kasar .depan-depan kot lu bikin projek kos rendah..haihh memang lu saket jiwa maw pujuk wa kan? sampai wa demam lu ckp wa mcm kena rasuk...haaa amik ko. ko xpernah tgok air mata aku kn? sekali je aku rakamkn depan mata ko.lepas tu harap maaf tiada siaran ulangan. Siaran ulangan akan ada kalo suami saye buat hal jew..bukan stakat demam..padam terus rasa nya...HAHA

ok then aku CUMA sensitip ngan family, wa cukup touching kalo abg2 or mak or seangkatan yg bernama keluarga wa menyakitkan hati. wa xmarah balik..tapi wa diam2 tenyeh mata guna tangan wa..ok dah! jgn cite lebih2..malu..ngee :) dalam hati wa tetap ade taman rama-rama kn. HAHA

ok ini serius punyer, air mata perempuan saya betul betul mengalir dari hati yg halus saat saya melihat tubuh ayah saya dikafan kan. terbayang mcm mana dia akan tempuh dunia baru dia seorang diri? bolehkah dia? sedangkan masa dia kena kerja di hari raya pon dia menangis, tapi itu qada' dan qadar.saya dengar talkin "mati itu benar" saya terima dengan kata yang positive. saya rasa dia bahagia disana selagi kami disini sentiasa mendoakan dia dan kami tahu sebaik mana dia sebagai mana baik nya dia sebagai seorang ayah mendidik kami menjadi seorang yang berperikemanusiaan.

kami dibesarkan dengan sifat yg sederhana atas bantuan isteri tercinta ayah saya dan cintanya dibawa sehingga ke hujung nyawa.cinta nya yang membawa ke syurga.cinta yg abadi.cintailah ibubapa anda :)

yang selebih nyer aku nanges kalo aku saket tahap cipan, ciapn pon tak guling2 mcm aku.

tapi korang jgn keliru antara sebak dengan air mata,

bagi aku kn..bagi aku laaaaa sebak tu bila ada something dlm hati yg tidak terluah.sakit yg simpan didalam pendam perasaan org ckp.aku pernah rasa sebak tu mcm mana. rase mcm xbole nak bernafas. nak ckp xbole..nak nangis pon rase nyer xde eyes water pon. ntah la..org yg mengalami nyer jer yg faham sebak tu ape..korang nak taw lebih lanjut sebak tu hape....korang google la sendiri sebab aku malas...
aku ckp pkai apa yg terlintas je..HAHA eyh suke hati la...bluwekk :-p

huuuwaaaAAAA sob sob sob!

*yg penting air mata aku mahal sebab aku diamond* HAHA poyo xnak kalah... :-p

b0san dikala cuti

huh! jarang aku rasa bosan mcm nih masa cuti..aku rase nk g kerja pon ada..cehh! poyo xmau kalah.

tp btol la...aku bosan tahap gaban nih.

sebenarnya tadi xde la bosan mcm nih. lepas on call.trus rasa bosan sbb aku kena marah. sigh. 

haa one more thing aku agak menyampah menyampah menyampah!!!! rase nk sepak dr jauh pon ade.semak pale otak aku jew, dah try buat pandai dah..tp makin lama makin menyampahhh!!

sHOOOO ko g main jauh2 la....cepat la BROOMBUS! 

dah la aku tension seminggu aku xtido mlm

maklum lew dolu2 aku dok london. siang jadi mlm,mlm jadi siang.

oh well well well i didnt get my perfecto nap.(rase nk tampaq laju2 la u nih!) sigh.

budak nie memang mcm bangahbangang. HAHA

arghhh chowkitchinchowcampursoya. sayurkailanikanmasinnara.yawn!

I LOVE THE WAY YOU LIE

On the first page of our story
the future seemed so bright
then this thing turned out so evil
I don’t know why I’m still surprised
even angels have their wicked schemes
and you take that to new extremes
but you’ll always be my hero
even though you’ve lost your mind
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
but that’s all right because I like the way it hurts
just gonna stand there and hear me cry
but that’s all right because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
Ohhh, I love the way you lie
Now there’s gravel in our voices
glass is shattered from the fight
in this tug of war, you’ll always win
even when I’m right
‘cause you feed me fables from your hand
with violent words and empty threats
and it’s sick that all these battles
are what keeps me satisfied
So maybe I’m a masochist
I try to run but I don’t wanna ever leave
til the walls are goin’ up
in smoke with all our memories
This morning, you wake, a sunray hits your face
smeared makeup as we lay in the wake of destruction
hush baby, speak softly, tell me that you're awfully sorry
that you pushed me into the coffee table last night
so I can push you off me
try and touch me so I can scream at you not to touch me
run out the room and I’ll follow you like a lost puppy
baby, without you, I’m nothing, I’m so lost, hug me
then tell me how ugly I am, but that you’ll always love me
then after that, shove me, in the aftermath of the
destructive path that we’re on, two psychopaths but we
know that no matter how many knives we put in each other’s backs
that we’ll have each other’s backs, ’cause we’re that lucky
together, we move mountains, let’s not make mountains out of molehills,
you hit me twice, yeah, but who’s countin’?
I may have hit you three times, I’m startin’ to lose count
but together, we’ll live forever, we found the youth fountain
our love is crazy, we’re nuts, but I refused counsellin’
this house is too huge, if you move out I’ll burn all two thousand
square feet of it to the ground, ain’t shit you can do about it'cause with you I’m in my fuckin’ mind, without you, I’m out it.

yes, i'am a masochist.i try to run but i don't wanna leave. till the end of time.. as what as u want.. i'll keep it to myself.

Life

LIFE IS LIFE ,FIGHT FOR IT!

Life is too precious.DO NOT DESTROY IT!

Life is a luck.Make it.

Life is a tragedy.Confront it.

Life is an adventure.Dare it

Life is a song,Sing it.

Life is a sorrow.Overcome it

Life is a promise.Fulfill it.

Life is a game.Play it

Life is a duty,Complete it

Life is a challenge.Meet it

Life is a dream,Realize it

Life is a bliss,Taste it.

Life is an opportunity,Benefit from it.

Life is a beauty, Admire it

S.A.H.A.B.A.T

"A memory lasts forever and never does die. True friends stay together and never say goodbye." :)
I miss those time together. :') I lost all of your pictures. :') but i did not lose from my mind. :') happy  our upcoming birthday :')

Nukilan Linkin Park

Ahaha aku xngantok..so sambil aku dengar lagu2 Linkin Park aku cantum kan lirik lagu Somewhere i belong, Breaking the habit, Crawling, and Runaway.  cerita aku may be!

love Chester Bennington and Mike Shinoda <3 <3 <3

Just stuck hollow and alone and the fault is my own and the fault is my own.I'll paint it on the walls cause i'm the one at fault. I'll never fight again. And this is how it ends.Without a sense of confidence. I'm convinced that there's too much pressure to take.I felt this way before. so INSECURE! I'm gonna run away and never wonder why.I'm gonna run away and open up my mind.


tapi aku tetap suke lagu "in the end" xjemu2 aku dgar lagu LP dr form 1! :)


"In The End"

(It starts with one)
One thing I don't know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind, I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time
All I know
time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It’s so unreal
Didn’t look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on but didn’t even know
Wasted it all just to
Watch you go
I kept everything inside and even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
One thing, I don’t know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind, I designed this rhyme
To remind myself how
I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I’m surprised it got so (far)
Things aren’t the way they were before
You wouldn’t even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me
In the end
You kept everything inside and even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There’s only one thing you should know
I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There’s only one thing you should know
I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter .